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Day off again
Kissing sound - Mozart * Lacrimosa
Man, since I started working, I realized that the best part of having a job, is having those days off lol. I had the weekend off and so far I only worked two days this week but I just really appreciate the days of not having to get up at 6 or so. Anyway I had a bit of a scare today because I'm apparently really bad with checking my work email. I just don't think to because I have my main account which is my personal, not to mention, super fun account. That's where I get my invoices for crap I buy, my random emails about Otakon, my coupons from stores I shop at frequently, etc etc. So I don't think to check my work email, though now I know I should. I checked today because every now and then I know that I'll get a notice saying I don't have to go to work. WOO! But today I checked it and saw one from someone I didn't know, saying I was going to be at Verizon tomorrow. I was like O.o;;; no...I'm supposed to be at a high school tomorrow and I got sort of panicked. I knew that to straighten it out I would have to call my supervisor and check with her and see what was going on but then I checked the date. It was sent on Monday, meaning that I was supposedly going to another drive on Tuesday. It is now Wednesday night. I'm sure that if I was going to get in any trouble, I would have already, either through phone call or email. I also got another email from my supervisor checking if I could work on the 18th (a Sunday one of my days off) and she added on if you could check your email once a day that would be great. So I was like yeah I actually really should. So I wrote back to her telling her I couldn't the 18th. I didn't give a reason because they didn't ask for one so there. But now my lesson is learned, check the damn email every day. I decided that I will every morning while I get ready for work. Otherwise, I might get another scare. Don't fuck up my schedule man, I like it the way it is.
So on my day off, I slept in until 1.30. I didn't mean to, I figured I'd get up on my own around 12 like I did over the weekend but, woo, I slept. I got up, watched some TV, did the dishes and just basically, relaxed like I use to before. For dinner, Tai and I went to his parents house and just chilled there for a bit. Now I'm home and getting ready to eventually wind it down and go to bed at a reasonable hour. I have to be up at 6, to be out the door by 6.30 and get to work at 8.30. The location is kinda far but the giri no kyodai is taking me and he drives like a maniac so I'm really not worried about being pressed for time tomorrow.
I also watched Mulan on the Disney channel. I love that movie. It reminds me a lot of Jo Beans, not for any serious reason, just because of Mulan's full name and Jo Bean's real full name. And that they're both Chinese lol But it made me miss my Baby Beans. <3
No new doll updates. Just waiting for clothes to come in the mail.
*mwah* @ 08:36 p.m. on Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Out and about
Kissing sound - L'arc~en~ciel * Sprial
I've been working since Monday. The blood drive on Monday was slow and uneventful. Today it was so much more interesting. I went to Merrill Lynch, you know the insurance company. Man, if you ever want a corporate job, Merrill Lynch is the place to be. The building I went to, wasn't really a building at all. It was an entire campus in a big horseshoe shape with beautiful gardening, a pond in the middle, cafe's a huge cafeteria, a mall like building where there was a card shop, more restaurants, I saw a gym at one point too. Just, wow. The structure of the building itself felt like a collage campus (you know a good college) rather then an insurance company. When I got to the building I was supposed to be at, in the middle of their courtyard, they had the big company mascot, the bull. It was an iron bull and HUGE, posed as if ready to run, horns up in the air. It was really cool. I'm kinda mad I didn't have my camera with me, it was a pretty cool place.
Doing a business drive made me like it better then any of the drives I've done so far. Grown ups are ready, they're faster, they pay attention and they follow direction while kids wanna be pains in the asses constantly. Also, adults recover faster and they're out of the way ASAP. I spent majority of the day chatting and snacking with my supervisor who was a cool guy and who didn't really tell me to do much other then take a break and snack. =D I even got to leave on time as oppose to a couple minutes afterwards. It wasn't bad at all today, in fact if more of my drives were like that I wouldn't mind it as much. Best of all, I have off tomorrow and Friday. YAY!
Enough job talk. I was going through my usual LJ's and I came across this article about Picasso and Lump, Lump being his dachshund. It made me really happy to read it because it's just so endearing. Plus, I love dachshunds <3 yay!
I haven't been far behind on my Jrock scene, I just haven't been able to post about it as much. I haven't seen any of the hide memorial that took place recently, either then Luna Sea playing because, damnit, I love them so much and it warms my heart to see them playing together on stage again. They need to just get back together. Anyway I keep hearing about a bunch of other bands who are there and some I understand but some I'm like huh? Why are you there? Like I know MUCC played and I'm like why? And I think the Underground and a bunch of other bands that left me confused. I guess it's because they were fans of hide too but then again, what Jrock artists wasn't a friend or fan of hide himself?
I'm still not sold on hide being the "greatest guitarist of all time" bit. Whatever, he was great but he wasn't GOD on the fucking thing. It's not like every guitarist after him sucked it up. He wasn't the first, he wasn't the last but people will just NOT let that shit go. I like to be a jerk every now and then and remind Tai that hide's dead. Just out of nowhere, especially if Tai is talking about him. I just kinda turn to him and say, "He's dead you know." And Tai gets angry lol he tells me leave him alone and I claim I AM the only one leaving him alone. Not like everyone else who every year necromances his spirit back from the dead to pay tribute. Geez. Anyway, all that aside, I finally got to see a bit more of the memorial concert in between blogging lol. So I shall now link to some of my favorite moments.
Luna Sea and X-Japan performing Pink Spider
One of my only favorite hide songs that I didn't utterly destroy for myself by playing it on loop. It's cool to see this, especially with Yoshiki and his Yoshiki powers playing piano in the beginning before slinging on hide's famous yellow with red hearts guitar and playing the opening. Also, unlike in the older hide memorial concert where Luna Sea's J and Sugizo did the song, J does not become irritating saying "YEAH YEAH YEAH" in the opening. Thank god.
Muteki Band playing X
Almost every Jrock artist who showed up for this memorial, including their roadies, got on stage at this point and did X-Japan's famous song X. It includes, Luna Sea, X-Japan, Hizumi from D'espairs Ray, the vocals and guitarist of MUCC and T.M Revolution along with more people but there are just way too many to name. It was awesome to see all the legends together XD Way too many phallic symbols on stage all at once. This brought back memories. The last time I saw X-Japan and Luna Sea together, they were all VK. And hide was still alive.
Luna Sea performing In Silence
I still get chills hearing that opening guitar with Sugizo playing it and Ino doing rhythm. Steals my heart every time. I love you Luna Sea!!!
Luna Sea performing Slave
Another awesome performance by my favorite band of all time. Damned if Sugizo still isn't the sexiest mofo in the world. Oh yeah, I still want to be his guitar. RAWR.
That's about it for now. Nothing much else to blog about other then that. Yay. <3
*mwah* @ 06:56 p.m. on Tuesday, May 6, 2008
High school boys
Kissing sound - Duel Jewel * Horobi no Umi ni Shizumi Yuku
So I went out on my very first blood drive today. I had to go to a high school for it and I was more or less excited for that prospect alone. Oh yeah, I'm something of a pedophile in which I love high school boys. They are adorable. Well sometimes. I'll start the story now.
So I had to show up at 7.15 AM. Ugh. I got there on time and after Tai dropped me off, I went in, found the gym and went in. I was put to work right away, mostly filling out forms with donor numbers and group number locations as well as the date. Afterwards, they moved me to the canteen area which is what they call the snack area. It was a long table with juice, juice boxes and different kinds of snacks. My job was to give the kids juice and snacks as well as keep my eyes on them in case they felt sick or dizzy because they were common reactions.
MOST of the kids were nice. They said please and thank you, listened to me and then left on their way with little to no fuss. But then around the middle of the day, I got a handful of douchebag kids that just decided to sit, eat and then not leave. When I would ask them how they were they said fine so I told them they had to leave because the table had to be cleared for other people to come and sit down to eat too. As soon as I said leave, they changed their minds and said they felt dizzy and still needed a few more minutes to sit. I was so annoyed that they wouldn't leave and they wouldn't listen. Fucking annoying kids. Seconds later I would see them wandering around the room talking to their friends, just being a pain and in the way but when I would tell them to leave again, they said they were still light headed. UGH. We had a resting area on the side of the gym where some mats were rolled out for some kids who felt really sick and needed to lay down for a while and these douchebags would go and lay down there and talk to their friends and would NOT leave. They spent majority of the day there ducking class. FUCKERS.
Then king douchebag showed up, being loud and obnoxious and an over all asshole. He kept saying that if he got AIDS from this that he would sue the company and the school and he would bring everyone down with him and stupid ignorant shit like that. Then he kept commenting on why they were all being fed juice and snacks like we were trying to stuff them. The real reason is that after donating that much blood you need the sugar afterwards. So when I was picking up some wrappers around him, he was like hey why are you guys trying to stuff us? Is there an oven around here you're gonna cook us in? And I was like yeah you first -_- Asshole. Ugh. I wanted to just smack him. Most of the douchebags hung around and ate up the snacks that were no longer for them and just kept coming back. It was really annoying. The girls were sometimes no better. One girl actually blacked out while she was giving blood and after she remained unconscious for at least half an hour, they brought her to the table to eat and drink. After about 20 minutes, she said she felt better and decided to leave. But on her way to the door, she started getting dizzy again and the nurses told he rto sit back down and wait at least 5 more minutes. She didn't want to though and her moron friends were also rushing her out. She sat down but when I turned my back and turned back, she was gone. I was like ah fuck her, I hope she faints again and cracks her head on the floor, maybe then she'll learn a lesson. Stupid bitch. Another girl I had to keep telling over and over again to move back with her legs under the table. They have you sit a certain while at the snack area. You had to sit with your legs under the table, both feet flat on the ground. It's so if you faint or pass out, you'll fall on the table, not the ground. So after the hundredth time of me asking her to turn around, she asked me why and I explained to her the reason. She said Oh that makes sense. And two seconds later she was around again. UGH. I HATE TEENAGERS.
But that wasn't majority of them as I said. One of the volunteers was this adorable senior Asian boy named Henry. He was adorable. Like just cute, cute, cute in every sense. I wanted to hug him so bad because he was just SO CUTE. I could have eaten him. Anyway he was a total doll, so helpful and nice we talked for a while in between the actions. He was just so cute <3 <3 He was 18 too. RAWR. Anyway, I also chatted up this other kid who was telling me he was going to go to school in Pennsylvania for graphic design and illustration. I warned him that any love he had for the subject would be sucked out by school. He was really nice though, interesting kid. I wish I had more time to chat with him about his art work but I was working. Boo.
I was on my feet majority of the day and despite the fact that I was wearing sneakers and stuff, my feet still killed and I hurt after I while. I know at one point I was on my feet from 7 in the morning until 10 in the morning and I know I didn't sit until maybe 11 or so. It was a long tiring day.
I don't like this at all. I don't deal with people and I don't like what I do. But as Tai just said to me, I'd be hard pressed to find a job that pays as well as this. And damnit, he's right. Ugh, I hate my job already. Only good thing about it right now is that I have the weekend off.
*mwah* @ 08:16 p.m. on Friday, May 2, 2008
Out in the field
Kissing sound - D * Sleeper
Went to actual work today. It was really more training but so long as I'm getting paid for it, I call it work.
It was a lot of paper work and explanations all day. Seriously 6 hours of paper work and explanations. Fun, fun, fun! It went by pretty quick though because along with the paper work I had to read a ton of procedures and that made time go by really quick. FYI, I really hate printing and signing my name now. I've had to do it well over a hundred times since Monday. I'm sick of it. Half way through the day, I decided to start alternating my handwriting to get my signature and printed name to look different. I slanted it, printed with more bold, exaggerated my swirls and loops in the signature. It got very boring as you can tell.
Tai had asked me last night if I was going to take a lunch break. I said probably not because I don't know anyone and I don't like to eat by myself. Plus I didn't know the area very well. He said his mom was going to be there and she would probably take me. I said I didn't want to impose on her to count on her to take me to lunch, especially if she was going with her coworkers. I didn't count on lunch today so when Tai's mom asked me if I was going to take a lunch break I was like uhhh, I have no idea. Because I didn't. But around 1 or so, she invited me to go to lunch with her. We went to Saladworks, I've never been there before but I was curious to try. I busted out my wallet while we were in line but she paid for everything. When we walked back to the office, we sat in the break room and talked a bit. I'm always a little nervous/awkward feeling around Tai's mom because I bond better with his dad, but it was cool and we laughed and stuff. Plus I was grateful to eat and best of all, not be alone.
Afterwards, I thanked her for lunch and felt full because that salad was heavy X.x I spent the rest of the day filling out my paperwork, practicing my alternating signature/printed name and that was pretty much my day.
Some of the better explanations were about call out days and on the 15th of every month, they'll ask me about my availability for the next month which is awesome because come June, I'll need June 20th-22nd off because I'll be going to the Renter en Soi concert Friday which runs late so I know I won't be up for work on Saturday. If anything I'll be destroyed from screaming, standing on my toes and craning my neck up all night, as well as having my arms up in the air. YAY for shoulder inflammation! So I'll sleep it off Saturday and Sunday I'll be going to the autograph signing. I hope one of them ogles me XD And I know in July, I'll need certain days off for birthday parties/events and in August I'll be in Baltimore so, nerts to that. Anyway...
I'm going to my first blood drive tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. I'll be at a high school (WOOO HIGH SCHOOL BOYS!!!) and I'm going to be there EARLY X__X so we'll see how that all goes. Hopefully, it won't destroy me.
I'm not feeling any better yet. Well I feel a bit better but nothing I'd call huge strides. My anxiety levels have gone down a bit but I'm still feeling really sad and bummed out. I'm hope it goes away. I have so much to look forward to.
*mwah* @ 10:07 p.m. on Thursday, May 1, 2008
LAST day of Orientation
Kissing sound - Yoo Sueng Jun * Nee Gah Mwul Ah Rah
So I had a break down last night. As I was laying in bed, about to go to sleep, I realized I was still really anxious. I had been since Sunday and it hasn't stopped. I've been eating like a bird and surviving on one meal a day and lots of fluids. Nothing hurt except this anxiety that kept tightening up in my chest and stomach every time I thought about my job. So I started telling Tai about how anxious I was and how tired I was and then it hit me that I was actually feeling overwhelmed and I started to cry. I felt like I was drowning, grasping at air to pull me up and coming up empty every time. I feel like I've been lied to about this job which is the only reason I took it.
The jist of the job is this. I'm working at a blood center. Actually one of the more active ones that gives the world 25% of blood from its banks. (learned that at orientation. Nice to know it wasn't all in vain.) Tai's mom, the one who told me about the job told me it was an easy job. Basically, I go to blood drives all over Jersey, trying to get people to donate blood as well as plasma and platelets. The main reason I was hired was because they needed someone who could speak Spanish fluently and the main reason I took the job was because the way Tai's mom told me was that it would be 3 days a week, 19 hours. I would be able to pick and choose what specific days I wanted unless they couldn't get someone for a specific blood drive then I would have no choice. It sounded sweet, please the pay was an incentive as well.
When I found out about orientation, that itself should have been a little red flag but Tai's mom said it wasn't that bad and that it was just 3 days and there was some nice places to go see around there. She said it was outside of the city (I.E Manhattan) but close by. Yeah, close by like half an hour 45 minutes away by train. It ended up being in Queens which furthered anxiety on my part.
I usually only go to Manhattan when I go to NYC. I haven't been to Queens in forever mainly because Sunnie and all my other friends there have been busy and some shit has gone on that has prohibited us from seeing each other in a while. Plus, the only part in Queens I set foot in aside from Astoria, was Flushings.
The place was not nice. It was a step up from a ghetto and surrounded by warehouses and factories. Any nice places that were there were probably really far from where I actually was.
It's not 3 days a week, 19 hours. It's whenever the hell they feel like scheduling me at any given hour, at any given day. In one week I'm working 4 days, have I think 1 or 2 days off and then I'm working the whole week, random hours. It's not what I was expecting. I tried telling myself that it's just for this month because I'm new and obviously I need the training but still, when I put thought into it, my anxiety levels hit the roof and I just broke down. Tai comforted me, telling me that it was just for this month and that I was just really tired. I think he's right about the whole being for this month thing but I don't know about the sleep thing. I've been getting 6+ every day, making the effort to sleep early but I do get up really early, so far these past 3 days I haven't gotten up any later then 6.30 in the morning. I rush, I'm anxious, I had to do a lot of walking and then sit for hours through some boring lectures which only prompted my further tiredness.
I still feel anxious. The anxiety is still sitting in my chest and stomach thought I finished orientation today. I have to go to actual work tomorrow which is just ten minutes away (at least for tomorrow) and it's from 9.30 to 4 which means I get to sleep in until 8 which is a nice break for me. But I'm still anxious. I don't know why and I'm starting to think it's that overwhelming feeling again.
Orientation was over today. It was the longest day in the universe. I got there on time and had the lectures, filled out paper work, watched cheesy 80's made videos and then had an hour gap between one instructor to the other. I actually ate a little today but still I filled on ginger ale more then anything else. Orientation finished at 3.30 and Tai was on time getting me. We got home with ease, managing to grab the train from Queens to Penn, getting our tickets and catching the express back home. We did get stuck in minor traffic getting out of the lot but for the most part, it was simple to get home. I'm glad it's over though. All the walking I had to do these past few days have made my legs hurt. My thighs especially, but strangely enough, my ankles as well. I knew I was going to feel serious pain when I was standing there the other day and I actually felt the muscle in my right calf tear. Ugh. Oh and more importantly, I got my work ID tag. Now I am an official employee. Joy and rapture.
*mwah* @ 08:12 p.m. on Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Second day of orientation
Kissing sound - Utada Hikaru * Fight the Blues
BAM! KNOCKED OUT!!!! ONE MORE BABY ONE MORE!!!!
The day started out all right. It was Tai's turn to take me to orientation. Because he's my snuggle bunny he got up early, drove me to the station, took me to New York and while I was at orientation, he walked around Manhattan until he got my call in which he picked me up and we went home <3 <3
Yeah that's the short, fluffy version. Here's the real version.
We woke up at 6.30 because orientation didn't start till 9. I figured, plenty of time. So we get ready and leave the house by 7.30 ish. Actually a little before it. But I had to go back to the house because I couldn't find the copy I had made of my high school diploma and my job needed a copy. So I went back inside to get the actual diploma. Took a few frantic minutes but I got it. Rushed back out, drove to train station avoiding major traffic. Got tickets, managed to be there for the 7.40 train. Unfortunately, so were a thousand other people. The platform was so packed and more people kept arriving. By the time the train came, the train itself was already packed and more people kept getting on and on and just as Tai and I got to the doors, they slammed shut, right on some lady too so, that was it. I missed the first train. 5-10 minutes later, the next train came and we got on that one with slightly more ease. Got to Penn Station and got to the E train after Tai got a Metro Card and I checked the balance on mine. After we were both solid, we got on the platform and it was just the same thing from the train station at Jersey. Platform was packed and more and more people kept arriving. So of course when the train did arrive, we again, couldn't get on. *sigh* A few minutes later though, the next train arrived and got on that one.
So it's now past 8.40. Orientation starts at 9. 5-6 stops later, we arrive in Queens, finally able to get some seats because majority of the train got off before we got into Queens. Because I only knew one way to get to the orientation site, we had to walk it and that was a couple of blocks. It was already 9 when we got to Queens and I was late. Time seemed to drift away from me quickly because I lost a chunk of it and it ended up being close to 9.30 when I got to the building. I guess it was later then I thought when we got to Queens. After saying bye to Tai, I went in and realized I missed the first half hour of orientation. Which was all right because it was just some shit video.
Orientation was boring as shit. As usual. After doing all the usual things I had to do, we were dismissed at 1.30 in which came a mighty cheer. I called Tai and he was in the middle of lunch with Jun. He told me he was coming and to stay in the building. I sat in the lobby and waited. An hour and 45 minutes later, Tai showed up. It had taken him an hour to get to me (he was way uptown in Manhattan) and he had to switch trains and when he finally got on the subway to Queens, the train was stuck because of an out of order train in front of his. So, there that sucked for me. It was 3 when he finally got to me. So we left and got back to Penn with some ease. But then came the long wait of waiting for our train to take us back to jersey. At that point, I had done a lot of running around and my feet were killing me because the callous on my foot has decreased greatly over the years of not wearing 5 inch heels in years. I handled my heels pretty well over the day but when it came to run around in Penn, I couldn't take it anymore. We sat for a while and finally our train arrived and we went home. But it doesn't end there kids.
At the station, we couldn't find the car. As in at all. Seriously, we spent half an hour looking for it because it was gone. I feared the worse and I was in pain and so was Tai so were both screaming in the garage unable to find the car. Not at each other, just in frustration. Finally we did find it. The reason we weren't able to before was because we didn't park on a specific floor, we parked in limbo I.E between floors. Glorious. And finally, FINALLY, we made it home.
I got notice from the P.O that my Sadol pants from Malaysia arrived. I won't be able to pick them up until Thursday though which sucks because I want my pants. I'm glad they arrived though. =D My Dreaming head should show up soon. Excitement!
*sigh* Only one more day. And it'll all be over.
*mwah* @ 09:04 p.m. on Tuesday, April 29, 2008
First day of orientation is over
Kissing sound - Oblivion Dust * Alone With Everybody
Well the first day of orientation has finally come to an end. FINALLY. God, what a boring experience. Guess I should start at the top.
I woke up really early after going to bed really early. I went to bed at 11 which I hadn't done since I was in middle school and I got up on my own at 5.18AM. I heard my mom shut off the shower a while before then but I thought I should get some more sleep. But then I was battling in my head about how tired I'd be if I did sleep and how annoying it is being woken up by mom so I got up. I already had my stuff ready from the night before so I just jumped in the shower and was ready, dressed and good to go at 5.45. So we left and headed to the train station. My mom was being SUCH a PAIN which I hate when she does because she acts stupid. I'm not saying she is, but she acts it in certain situations I don't know why. She was fighting with me about where she should park, then when we found a spot, she wanted to park somewhere else and I said to leave the car, there's no sign or warning or special number color that says we couldn't park there but she wanted to park somewhere else. I got annoyed and she finally agreed to leave it. THEN she argued with me about paying for the parking spot as we were leaving the garage though it clearly stated on the ticket, pay when you return to your car. THEN she argued with me about WHERE the train platform was. THEN she argued with me about where to go get tickets, nevermind there was a free standing ticket machine where it was faster and easier to get then going into the station and buying them at the window and standing in a long ass line. FINALLY after that all that was settled, we waited for the train. I was nervous because I realized that I didn't know where I was going annnd I had lied and told my mom I did. Whoops. I was hoping it would be clear to me by the time we arrived in Penn because I remembered sorta the location we had to go and I vaguely remembered the signs for the E line and what Jun had told me. So my mom's the little chatterbox all the way to Penn and I stifle my annoyed look and smile and chat back because my mom's just trying and I was still grateful (despite her insanity) that she came with me and I wasn't on my own. So we get to Penn and it took us less time then expected because we had gotten on the express rather then local. It was awesome.
At Penn Station, I quickly saw where we were supposed to go, feigning confusion for lack of knowledge. But we had some time and we stopped at Dunkin Donuts to get some coffee. I hadn't had coffee in forever but it was warm and my mom paid so I took it. I ended up burning the first layer of skin off my tongue because New York makes coffee with lava and the peculates with the fires of hell. Anyway I was anxious about making it on time so we left and grabbed the E train downtown with relative ease. In fact, that was the easy part after getting to Penn. A lot easier then I thought and I thought it would be hard. I was worried about getting Metro cards because of the huge morning commute and I didn't want to hold up the line arguing with my mom about which Metro Card to get (because she argued with me on that too) but it was smooth. Got to the right stop and everything. So when we got to Queens, I was like uh...because I had no idea where to go. Annnd it rained. SURPRISE! I was totally unprepared for the rain. I had my ugly flats, dress pants, a matching coat and a sweater but that was it. I carried no umbrella, no hoodie, nothing and it was cold. I figured we'd get to the place rather easily and fast but it turned out not to be so. I ended up walking in circles with my mom. I told her that I hadn't gotten this far because I was lazy and she just laughed it off, thank god. Anyway, we finally found the place and I was on time, despite getting a little lost.
I went in after drying off a little and then having a temporary ID taken. There were a couple of other people there but they were all way older then me. They all looked like moms and dads and no one talked to me. Ah, just like in school (high or university). Anyway at this point, I was sitting in my chair, shivering violently because I was still damp from the walk and the room was cold. Orientation itself was boring and totally not needing to be three days long. There was more time wasted in dawdling and waiting then actual events going on. We had a quick lecture, then watched 3 5-10 minute videos, filled out paper work and that was it. I tried texting some people but my battery on my phone was alternating between 1 and 2 bars so I couldn't text long messages. I got to leave around 12 because I didn't have to stick around for the rest of the lecture. Great. Little dotted out line of me later, I was in the lobby, getting my mom who waited out the previous hours reading a novel. We walked back to the subway and again, easy to get back and then we caught our train back to Jersey.
I was so annoyed and tired when we got back but my mom still made us stop at the market and Petco to get Cashew food and bread for the house. I made it back home at 3 X_x
I still have 2 more days of this shit and I'm really annoyed by it. I feel bad dragging Tai tomorrow and Wednesday considering it's more hours and he gets to walk around Manhattan while I'm stuck in Queens. Ugh. I wish I could just blow this off but I know I can't. ANNOYING!!! I have actual work on Thursday and on Friday but Friday I get out at 2.30 and I have the weekend off. I'm already looking forward to it. X_____x
And finally on a totally un-job related topic, my Dreaming head was shipped. WEEEEEEEE! Unfortunately I'll be at work when it arrives. D'oh!
*mwah* @ 07:16 p.m. on Monday, April 28, 2008
DOOM
Kissing sound - Luna Sea * G
So one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE manga of all.time is being turned into an anime.
BLADE OF THE IMMORTAL is going to be an anime.
*dead*
Seriously, I could hardly contain myself when Tai showed me the trailer yesterday. Serious overjoy and thrills THRILLS I SAY!!!! Especially when Anotsu walked in *gurgle* akslsk!! Because of this, it makes me want to do a Blade of the Immortal cosplay. Tai is down for it. If I can just think of who to be myself, I would also totally be down for it. I WANNA DO ONE!! DEATH!!! AND DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!
/end fangirl rant of glee and doom
So I was supposed to go to the city today. I didn't feel like it though. Neither did Tai. So after he went to his doctor's appointment, we headed to the mall instead. I called Jun and asked her where I was supposed to go. It was easier then I thought. =D So Tai and I headed to the mall. YAY MALL! We went into the Disney store because I was extremely pissed off that there was all this Little Mermaid gear for kids and I was a kid when this movie came out and NOTHING was out for me! Disney, WTF?? I was sitting there going "AHHH! WHY NOT ME!" every ten seconds while we walked around the store. Finally, I started to get really annoyed because I saw there was grown up people clothes but it was all Tinkerbell or Mickey Mouse and I was like W.T.F!! Where is Ariel!??!! But then, I found it. I found a grown up Ariel blouse and I died, many times over.
It made me really happy. I kept looking around though, hoping I'd find something else. I did end up finding a Disney Princess series shirt done in a Alfons Mucha style. I was like ugh there should be just an ARIEL one. I kept looking and found a Sleeping Beauty one, a Jasmine one and finally, an Ariel one <3
I'm a fan of Mucha's work. Not a huge fan, but I do love it a lot. Seeing the style, not only on a shirt but with my favorite character of all time it made me overly giddy. The artwork was STUNNING too. I couldn't help but keep staring at it. And take more pictures.
Just the details on this drive me nuts!! I wish I had the patience to do something like this. It's so beautiful. And also, the thing that got me about this shirt was at the bottom.
Princess of the Sea, Circa 1989, the year The Little Mermaid came out. XD XD I love this shirt. I was a little upset it had long sleeves, but I figured I can wear it until it gets too unbearable. WOOT! I also got SOCKS! With Ariel on them. It totally made my day XD
Tai and I also went to B&N to pick up a few manga. I wasn't expecting much considering I'm all caught up but then I saw Vampire Knight 4 and despite being all caught up on that through Shojo Beat, I still bought it cuz I love it. n__n Then I remembered that I was still missing the last volume of Tramps Like Us, number 14. So I bought that right away as well. YAY! I wrapped up another series. Now with this and Hana Kimi done, I can concentrate on Samurai Deeper Kyo and hopefully finish that sometime soon as well. And Fruits Basket. And Saiyuki Reloaded if Tokyopop ever decides to come out with volume 8 of that -__-. And Wild Adapter. And...you know what, I have too many series as is. It seems like every time I finish one, I have another started already. D'oh.
Anyway, after the mall, Tai and I headed home and we took Cashew for a walk because I felt so guilty leaving home by himself, even if it was for a while. Then we hung out for a while and I went online and bought myself a Dreaming Delf El head. I got fucking annoyed waiting for that girl to write back to me that I just bought this one. There was sound reasoning for it though.
See, to me, there's very little difference between an El and a Breakaway. Oh, there are some, but not major drastic ones. And last night, while I was talking to Tai, I realized I only wanted a Breakaway because of the sultry bedroom eyes it has. The Breakaway head I was trying to buy, had closed eyes and I was going to have to pay for the mods and have the eyes open ANYWAY. So I went to Luts and bought a Dreaming El head which is the same thing as a Breakaway dreaming head and it was cheaper too. I'm still going to have to pay for the make up and the mods but at least I got what I wanted. FINALLY.
After that, Tai and I left and went to his parent's house where I brought Ryuhei along and took some pictures of him in the backyard. They have a really nice yard with a nice garden (though not in bloom yet) and more importantly, a sakura tree XD The pics are over here.
After having dinner, we came back home and finally relaxed.
I guess that's all. YAY! I'm actually kinda tired. I still have to get use to this whole waking up early, going to bed early thing. Ugh.
*mwah* @ 10:54 p.m. on Friday, April 25, 2008
Untitled X3
Kissing sound - J * Perfect World [Remix]
I need a new layout. I have like no inspiration for one though. *sigh* I love Hyde and all but I know it's time to change it up. Plus this has been up since January. >P
So I've been continuing in the EVER LONG WAIT of this girl getting back to me. She hasn't if you can't tell. Like seriously, you'd figure someone would want my money. I decided to field other options and hope I can find it from somewhere else. The only other choice I have is to cough up another 100$ to this one girl who's selling it for 260$. I really don't want to waste another 100$ on something like a head. Plus I don't really have the money to do so. I sent the girl another message though, asking if she received my previous message. *face palm* I'm ready to give up though, seriously. It just looks like it's not gonna happen. Bummer.
On more uplifting news, Ryuhei got his new commissioned shirt today! I was jazzed about it because the quality is amazing. The only thing that sucked about it was that there was no clasps, no buttons, no snaps, no velcro, nothing to open the shirt and put it on. The thing is, that it's fitted around the body so his head can fit, his arms can fit but not both at the same time. So it became the impossible dream to get this shirt on Ryuhei's body today. I got it on though, only after making his arm bend in unnatural angles and making it come out of the socket a bit. But once it was on, it looked good on him. I'm holding out for pictures though, I'm hoping Saturday I can take him to Tai's parent's house for abuse of their backyard and blossoming sakura tree XD Woot!
Made more sales in the Kpop department. I'm glad about that. I think I made at least another 40$ and I'm still waiting for an additional 20$ to come through the mail. I need the money but at the same time, not as much as before since I start work soon. My first pay day will be the 9th if I'm right. Right before mother's day which means an additional buy on my list of things to do with that paycheck. I'm just glad to start work again. I'm not as nervous about orientation as I was before. I think mostly because I'm just worried about getting there and finding the place on time. It's so early too...it's gonna suck.
Oh, btw TC, I already bought those 2 yaoi. I didn't buy them for plots. I bought them for smut purposes XD Plus I liked the artwork in I Want to Be Naughty XD
I FINALLY made the Otakon room reservations. I decided to call them up as oppose to doing it online which was easier. The person was very helpful and it was just a relief to get it done.
I got my work schedule today. Ugh it looks maddening but it's really not that bad. They only have me working 2 8 hour days and the average number of hours I seem to be working is 5, which isn't too bad. 3 days out of the week. It's just a lot of traveling around. I get to go to allll of New Jersey. How fun. Tai, my mom and I have to work some kind of car sharing deal because Tai can only take me on some days and other days I have to take the car myself but some days Tai can't take me at all because I'm off when he's still working so I guess I have to jack my mom's car or something. It sucks not having your own car. I also think I need to invest in a GPS system eventually. With this whole going all over the world deal, I'm gonna need it.
Well that wraps this entry up. I wish I could think of a layout. And get my Breakaway head...and find some way to get paid without having to work.
*mwah* @ 10:42 p.m. on Thursday, April 24, 2008
Doing things
Kissing sound - Dir en grey * Dozing Green
So I still haven't gotten any reply from that girl about the Breakaway head. I'm gonna try once more tomorrow and if I don't get an answer by then, I'm gonna have to write it off completely ;__; It would suck to do that because I really want that Breakaway head but if I can't get it, I can't get it, what am I gonna do? It just sucks is all and not to mention, insanely frustrating.
So I checked my bank account. Nothing. Paypal said it would take 3-4 business days for the money to transfer. I checked the site and figured out what I had to do to get the money to show up in my bank account so I did what was required of me, but now paypal is saying the transaction was complete and my bank account is saying nothing is there. I'm getting concerned and I'm going to call my bank tomorrow because there's no way almost 600$ is up in the air, lost over the interweb. I double checked everything over and over again and not a damn thing has showed up. I have to make the room reservations damnit!! I would appreciate some money being there!
New job starts next week. It's amazing how fast my last 2 weeks of luxury flew by. Then again, I always lost track of time when I wasn't employed. Hell the minute I got fired from my last job, I forgot what day it was. All the days bled together and it just seemed like one long continuous day so I had to nap in between so I wouldn't be tired. I've been trying to adjust my sleeping pattern recently so I can get tired earlier and earlier. So far, I've been getting tired at 2 in the morning which isn't too bad but I really need to be tired by like, 11 or 12 so I can get a decent amount of sleep. I know that come Sunday night, I'll have to take sleeping pills to knock myself out and go to bed otherwise, I'll up until 2 and have to get up at 5.30 so I could be grumpy and tired as hell. Ugh. Those three days are going to utterly destroy me.
I'm already getting annoyed with finding the damn place and I haven't even gotten there yet and it's all because of my mom. I felt relieved when she said she would come with me my first day (I have major anxiety over things like this) so I was like yay good! Annnd then I was like oh wait...it's my mom. My mom has this intense paranoid like fear of New York. She watched too many movies and listens to every single story about the city from the 80's onwards so she believes it's this pool of filth and debauchery where naive farmer's daughters get off buses and get kidnapped, sold as slaves and hookers. I was like wow, really? I mean I'm not going around the city all wide eyed and naive with a country bumpkin accent going "Golly mister, a night club? *giggle* That sure does sound exciting!" I know to keep to myself, stay alert and not walk down dark alleys by myself. So when I told her I have to go to the city for orientation, she got way paranoid and way annoying. For the past couple of weeks since she offered to go with me, she's been hounding me about getting directions, about what train to take, about where the place is. I finally had to yell at her to calm the fuck down or I'd go by myself. I didn't need her bullshit of her hassling me and hounding me about where to go like 6 weeks in advance. So I got directions, and by directions I mean, which train to take from Penn, and told her. But then she started up with the whole how long do trains take, what happens if we miss one, OH MY GOD THE SUBWAY. I'm like OH GEEZ!!! STOP. But of course she's not having it and is so desperate for me to learn every pebble of the path I have to take, that she's actually sending me to New York this Friday to learn the route and which train I have to take. Glorious. Not only is that an entire day wasted but it's also a hassle because we're all kinda broke. I didn't really want to go to the city now but she's giving me money and sending Tai and I on our way so I'm like...kay. Anything to shut her up at this point.
One of my manga came in. It was one of the first things I bought with the profits I made from selling my K-pop goods. I bought some smut called My Paranoid Next Door Neighbor. And it was just that, smut. It had a flimsy storyline but come on, who's reading these for storylines? I was just glad I got it and it's part of the collection and something else checked off the Amazon list =D I went to buy part 3 of the Finder series only to find out it's no longer being sold on amazon. I did a web search and found a place who had it in stock and bought it only to be BACK LISTED. What a crock, I only placed the order because they said they had it in stock. Now they don't. Ugh. I'm gonna cancel it and go elsewhere...if I can find it elsewhere. What a pain in the ass.
I love pointless smut. I love smut with great titles like I Want to be Naughty and Dog Style. Don't those just scream "POINTLESS SMUT"? Yeah they did to me XD Yay for porn!
So it looks like I'm going to Anime Next again this year. While Otakon is sucking major balls big time with their lousy, lame ass choices for music, Anime Next has been bringing it for the past 2 years. Now their third year, they are once again bringing it. Renter en Soi folks. WOOO!! EXCITEMENT! Thank god this con is only 45 minutes away from me. I can just go and come back home and not worry about hotels unlike Otakon. I have to pre-reg IF THIS MONEY EVERY DECIDES TO SHOW UP IN MY ACCOUNT for this and for Otakon. But now I'm even more hyped about this con. WEEE! VIP tickets, here I come XD
My tummy feels hard. Not in that good way either. I had too much pizza now my tummy feels like a bowling ball. Ugh. I wish I hadn't eaten so much.
*mwah* @ 09:30 p.m. on Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Busy busy day
Kissing sound - Buck Tick * Alice in Wonder Underground
Hee hee. I feel like a bee. Busy busy busy lol. Lame. Anyway, I did have a busy today. Lots of running around. I woke up at 11.30 this morning but I ended up doing nothing for the first half hour. I went online to check stuff at first and check addresses and stuff but that was it. A few minutes later, D calls me and I'm like weee because I was gonna see her later today. So we end up talking for a half hour, almost 45 minutes. Geebuz. So when we were finally done and hung up, I went to take a shower and get ready. When Tai and I were both ready, we grabbed everything and left. The first place we hit was the bank. I thought it would be fast because I had my deposit slip ready and I figured it would be faster to hit the drive through. WRONG. There was a line the size of Texas and ugh, it was SO SLOW for no reason other then people being dumb asses. Finally I deposited the check I had and then we headed to the supermarket. I wanted to get some puffy envelopes that were cheaper there but they only had the huge envelopes and I decided against it. Luckily, there was a supply store right next to the market. But when I went to buy the envelopes there, they had no poster tubes AND there was a 10$ minimum and I didn't have any cash. ERG! HUGE waste of time. So we head straight to the P.O the next stop.
At the P.O their computers where down and couldn't take a credit cards either. Finally I ran to the Bank of America next door, withdrew some cash and bought an envelope, a poster tube and mailed everything out. Which is all I wanted to do in the first place!! GEEZ. After that I was so annoyed but glad it was over with and we still had to head to the UPS customer service place to drop off the biggest package.
I recently sold a ton of magazines so I had this big heavy box to take care of. We went to the UPS place and after filling out some info, we finally had the box shipped out. I even got a tracking number which I already emailed to the girl =D Yay for that being all done and taken care. When Tai and I were all done with that, we had a bridge of time so we went back home and ate. I had the chance to walk Cashew too so that was a good thing. Finally, when we were done, we headed to my unnie's house.
I really love Hayden so I was so happy to see her. She was sleeping like a viking! She was so adorable, I couldn't resist anymore and finally held her. I sat in the middle of the bed though and when unnie gave her to me, I felt like Stan Smith from American Dad. "I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready *baby gets handed to him* I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS CHILD!!!" Yeah that was me. There's some pictures of me with this dopey, goofy look on my face over here. It's kinda embarrassing. I must redeem myself later.
Afterwards, Tai and I left to meet up with D (she came to see unnie too but she left a bit before us) for this comedy show at Rutgers. It was all right, I had a good time just seeing D. We left after the show, kinda tired and unwilling to hang out afterwards. And now I have returned.
I was really pissed today too because I'm trying to buy a Breakaway head from someone and this girl is jerking me around. Since it got stuck in my head a day ago (or so) that I wanted a Breakaway head, I've kept my eye out in the board on DoA, more or less crossing my fingers, hoping, praying. Never hurts to look around. So today before I had to run all over god's green earth, I check DoA because I had 2 messages and then, I see it, Breakaway Head for sale. I check the sales thread and it's THE HEAD! The one I've been looking for. Then I check the price, kinda holding my breath but expecting the usual gouge. Only to see it. 150$ Right in my price range. I freak out and PM the girl, hoping to get a reply by the time I came back from my day. When I got back, I saw nothing. So I huff a little and then decide to do what I always do. I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. Maybe she didn't come on yet. Maybe she didn't check her messages. So I check. Yeah, not only was she on, but she read my message. Apparently, another one that couldn't be bothered to reply. But I'm anxious about the head so I left a reply in her thread, letting her know I sent her a message, see if that gets her off her ass and hopefully, she'll reply to me.
If I don't get a reply by tomorrow, I'll assume she's being a cunt and doesn't want to sell the head to me for varies moronic reasons. But mostly, I'll assume she's a cunt.
Ugh WHY WHY WHY WHY can't people just tell me yes or no!? This has only happened twice but so far, I take real offense to it! Like I'm so unimportant that I can't get a simple sorry it's sold or sure let's do this reply!!! I've had so many good replies from people on DoA, considerate people that have sold things to me and let me know when they ship it out and everything and I've done the same in return. WHY can't some people do that?? GEEZ.
I'm probably jumping the gun here, I'll admit it. It's just that I'm really impatient and I've been spoiled by quick people on DoA who reply back within the day, sometimes within the hours. Let's just hope she gets back to me ASAP. If she does, then I'll cheerfully withdraw this.
So that was my annoyance from that I started watching the anime Vampire Knight
I've always been a big fan of the manga since I started reading it in Shojo Beat so yeah, I was souped that it was coming out as a anime. I was concerned it might be crap animation (ala Air Gear) but that fear was laid to rest. My next concern is the crap dubbing job they might do (ala Death Note and Bleach) but so far the animation is AWESOME. Thank god I re-learned how to make caps. (Memo to self: ctrl + i TOKI!!!!) but yeah, it's amazing. I just have to find more episodes because I only have the first 2.
And now, I am done. I shall attempt to write a little tonight. I've been doing good so far and I'm almost done with this chapter. I'm hoping to post it sometime soon. As soon as I can think of a title.
*mwah* @ 09:36 p.m. on Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Spring has finally arrived
Kissing sound - 30 Seconds to Mars * The Kill
I took the monkey for a walk and this time, I was armed with my camera. In front of my apartment there are 2 huge cherry blossom trees. I see them bloom every year and every year I swear I'd get pictures only to forget and then remember when the blossoms die. This time I remembered early. Pictures are all here
The little monster wouldn't let me get more shots. He was anxious to go and I didn't have Tai with me to take him ahead while I snapped away a few more pictures. I was sad to see that the smaller trees around the back had already died and again, I forgot to take pictures while I was there. It was weird though, the last time I went outside, the trees hadn't even blossomed and that was Saturday. It happens so fast.
So I have new money worries. I went to make our Otakon room reservations. I figured that with Miya's friend Bobby paying me his part, I had enough to at least put down a payment if one was needed. After calling the Sheraton and finding out that they were booked for the 7th through the 10th in August (Otakon's days) I was left with no option but to go to the Hyatt, a more expensive hotel. I knew we would need a deposit so I went to check my account online only to find out that the last four payments I got from Paypal (a wig payment, Bobby's payment, Miya's partial payment and the K-pop magazine sale payment) were NOT in my account though on the paypal site, it says all the transactions were complete. I thought maybe I'd have to wait for them to be cleared but it still worried me. I don't remember paypal taking so long to put the money in my account and I kinda need that money. I have to send out this girl's box tomorrow and I need to buy mailing supply for the other packages I have to send out. Not even mentioning that I have to book the Otakon room before it gets any later. I emailed Paypal to ask what's up and by tomorrow if the money doesn't show up in my account, I'll call my bank and see what the hell is going on. It's worrisome.
Hope that clears up. And I hope I find a Breakaway head that's not gouged in price soon. I decided I really want one. It would suit Ryuhei really well. XD
*mwah* @ 09:58 p.m. on Monday, April 21, 2008
More shoes and SALE
Kissing sound - Nelly Furtado * Maneater
So on further thinking, I was glad I didn't get those Coach high tops though if I DID get them, I would have been glad I did. They're really cute. Anyway, when I told my mom I wanted x-high Converse's instead, she said okay though she didn't know what the hell an x-high top Converse was anyway. When I had gone to Converse's official site, I saw they had a design your own shoe thing and I played around with it for a while not loving the idea but really liking it. I always feel you should love something if you're going to drop serious money on it. And though the shoes aren't a serious price, they are something I have to wear so I must love it. Anyway this leads into another story.
Anytime I walked around the mall, I always saw these xx-high tops by Converse. They were black, white and gray plaid which I hated (I like solid colors) but I loved the style. I didn't think they really existed in solid colors so I was like GRR. But I kept thinking about it and thinking about it and it came to the point that I started drawing them. I usually don't draw shoes if I draw a full body mostly because the angle always looks awkward to me. But when I drew Satsuki once, his sitting pose allowed me to draw the xx-high tops I want. So he has them on. It made me love the idea even MORE. And finally just on a whim, I started searching the interweb for xx-high tops by Converse. I found them XD
EEEEEEE! They're just like the ones I drew on Satsuki on the logo isn't at the top (which I seriously think it should have been_ but they're exactly the same xx-high tops I want. I showed them to my mom who hates these a lot. She says I wouldn't wear them but uh, what does she know lol. I know they'll be tricky to wear constantly and I can wear them only with skinny jeans (which I only have 2 paid of) but if I got them, I know I'll wear them. I'll make the effort and buy more jeans XD I'm sure I can wear them with something else too but for the time being, skinny jeans is all I can think of. Anyway, my mom said I could buy them and I will tomorrow. EEEE!!!! I FOUND MY SHOES!!! I'm so easily pleased. I should have bought my Pastry kicks but those will come later. XD
Speaking of buying things, I made good on some deals today which made me insanely happy. I finally sold the wig I had for Ryuhei that he will never wear again, I sold some H.O.T stuff! Ahh so glad to finally be able to move that stuff. Everything goes out on Tuesday so I'm relieved that it was able to sell. WEEE!
I finally got directions to orientation. I also found out that the place I'm going to is called Long Island City, which is in SURPRISE, QUEENS! -_-;;; yeah I don't get it either. No wonder I couldn't find directions when I tried to before. Anyway Jun helped me out a lot and got them for me so now I know which train to take. Huge relief on my part.
Damnit...Tai pimped MUCC out to me mad hard and even gave me 3 songs of theirs which I ended up loving. Ugh. I never liked MUCC. Now they're coming out with good shit. Damn them. Damn them to hell.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKLES!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
*mwah* @ 08:47 p.m. on Saturday, April 19, 2008
Shopping and camwhoring
Kissing sound - Merry * Kohakuiro no Ballad
I had me a good day today! Despite getting up early and being all GRR about it. I slept through Tai getting up and showering but I woke up all paranoid I had missed my hair appointment only to hear Tai changing already telling me he had gotten out of the shower 3 minutes ago. D'oh! So I got up, got ready and off we went.
I had an appointment with my stylist to do my hair FINALLY. She's the only person I trust to do my hair as well as my eyebrows. I keep forgetting if I mentioned this but I once went to get my eyebrows done in another salon and the woman was apparently, blind/stupid/retarded/not trained enough because she didn't realize my eyebrows grow downwards. (I know it's really weird, I can't explain it but apparently it's genetic)So anyway, when she put the wax on and tore it off via the cloth strip they use, she had gotten wax on the top part of my eyebrow, more towards the end of it. She had ripped off the entire end of my eyebrow leaving me with that weird drawn on looking nub. I FREAKED OUT. She did too because she was like "Oh my god!" and she gasped and her hands were shaking. I would have gotten mad but she felt bad enough so...you know, no sense in kicking someone when they're already down. She didn't charge me but I never went back to that salon again. I spent the next few days penciling in the end of my eyebrow -_- Ugh after that, getting someone else to do my eyebrows became my main concern which is why I love my stylist who's a perfectionist. Every time I get my hair done by her, she leaves it smooth and silky as well as perfectly dyed. She also shapes my eyebrows nicely XD I was so jazzed to get my hair done again. I hadn't been able to since January which bummed me out because my roots where uh, gross lol.
The camwhoring is over here
XD XD So after my hair was done, Tai and I grabbed a quick bite to eat and then I went back to the salon because my mom was getting her hair cut. Tai had to go because he had to see his mom so my mom and I hung out on our own. She bought me new work shoes which I hate the shit out of. They're so ugly. I hate flats that aren't sneakers or boots and these things are like ballet slippers with more padding on the inside to make them comfortable. They are comfortable, I'm not gonna lie but they're so ugly ;__; They look like this.
Ugh. They make me cry. I've always hated shoes like this but now I own a pair. Maybe once I find out more of my routine I'll change back into my heels. I can't wear these a lot, they hurt my feelings. I'm going to wear them for orientation but that's only because it's in the city and I'm not running around the city in 5 inch heels.
Ugly shoes aside, I was SO CLOSE to getting these sneakers. *CRIES* In black of course, to match my purse. But I ALMOST HAD THEM! What stopped me you ask? They didn't have them in my size. The last pair were the display pair that was a size 10. LAME. I was upset, I missed my chance to get a pair of Coach high tops before now it looks like I'll have to miss again. >P
My mom had to get some candles from Yankee Candle and I like candles, especially fruity smelling ones but my mom loves them way more then me. We got Midnight Jasmine, Mango Peach Salad and Lavender. It made my mom happy =D which is always a good thing. Afterwards, we headed to FYE because my mom wanted to get some CDs. I was bored and wanted to head to Borders next door but on my way out, I remembered that FYE was selling D'espairs Ray album Mirror. I even found a DVD of theirs X___x anyway after a quick search, I found it and got it for myself XD WEEE! It was such a thrill seeing Japanese artists in an American mall.
Over in Borders, I picked up Shojo Beat which I'm starting to only read for Vampire Knight but I keep getting it because I like all their articles and the little one chapter promos for other manga are what keep me coming back. I also bought the last volume of Hana Kimi 23 and Mu Shi Shi 3 for Tai. I was kinda bummed because I wanted Tramps Like Us 14 which is also the last in the series and 2 new yaoi, one which I already read called I'll Be Your Slave *drools* Next time I guess. I still can't find Embalmer 4. *huff*
I think that's everything for now. I'm gonna write.
*mwah* @ 09:00 p.m. on Friday, April 18, 2008
Lovey Dovey
Kissing sound - Girugamesh * Koware Teiku Sekai
I've been in this lovey dovey mood these past 2 days. It started when last night, Last of the Mohicans came on. For those that don't know it's a Daniel Day-Lewis movie and being a fan of his, I had to watch it, especially because Tai hadn't seen it before.
Watching this movie again, I had to question if it was a "guy" movie or a "chick flick" mostly because it has a lot of elements of both. There's lots of action and explosions and fight scenes with blood and filth and men running around and hitting each other with rifles and tomahawks and even an awesome heart removal scene. But then there's serious romance including Daniel Day-Lewis's character being in love with an English woman, the daughter of the colonel in the movie, the actress being Madeline Stowe. In the movie her sister is in love with Daniel Day-Lewis's brother as well. There's a lot of love between the two and this movie has one of the all time great lines of romance. There's a scene where Daniel Day-Lewis's character and Madeline Stowe's characters have to separate and he doesn't want to abandon her. She starts talking about giving up and he yells at her to not give up that no matter what happens or how long it takes, he will find her again. And it's all very passionate because they had gone through so much and they're still going through things and it's under a waterfall and Daniel Day-Lewis an awesome actor, delivers the lines with such love and passion, like you would really believe that he would do anything to save her, find her later on. It's very endearing. Plus it doesn't hurt that Daniel Day-Lewis is a lot younger in this movie and kinda hot. He's running around with his long hair (good hair might I add) and he's kinda dirty from being in the woods and kinda covered in blood from all the killing and he's wearing those Native American style chaps...yeah man. Plus he's all cock diesel in the movie too. I was like yeah, that's awesome.
*cough* Anyway! like I was saying, the movie has strong elements of romance though historically totally inaccurate. But who's noticing as you swoon over the passion Daniel Day-Lewis delivers in this movie! try to watch it, especially if you're feeling kinda lovey like me.
Earlier today, I saw another great classic about love and trials.
Oh that's right, "Nobody puts Baby in a corner." If you haven't seen this movie, something is wrong with you and you need to go rent/buy/download this movie ASAP. I've seen this movie a hundred times over, which would explain my love for do-wop music and the fact that I know lyrics from songs that were popular before I was even born and when my mom was a kid herself. Anyway, beautiful movie, the love between Johnny Castle (Patrick Swayze) and Baby (Jennifer Grey) has a lot of passion as well. The music plays a big part in this too, especially when Johnny and Baby have to say good bye to each near the end of the movie and She's Like the Wind starts playing in the background. It's a big society against them kind of love. If you've seen the movie, you know what I mean. I love all the dance sequences in this movie too, especially when they're in the practice room and they're crawling around on the floor towards each other while mouthing the words to the song playing in the background. Of course, nothing beats the ending, when they dance together in front of everyone, the big lift scene and of course, "nobody puts Baby in a corner."!!! Best line of all time. Dancing is always a passionate, love thing because you have to have trust and faith in your partner and even though in real life Jennifer Gray and Patrick Swayze hated each other, their chemistry is amazing in the movie. <3 Don't believe me about dancing? Ever hear about that TV show, Dancing with the Stars? Ever hear how many people have left boyfriends/girlfriends/husbands/wives because they fell for their dance parter? Yeah man, it's serious. XD
Later on after Tai left for work, I started going through Mars again.
I can't tell you how much I love this manga. It's one of the first series I started to collect and the more I read it, the more I fell in love with the story. It's about this rebel guy named Rei who's a total delinquent in school, rides motorcycles, ditches whenever he can and gets laid by anyone he picks. He meets Kira, a sweet shy artist and they're friends at first, she asks him to be her model and it slowly develops into love. Of course it's never that easy. All these secrets about both Rei and Kira come up to haunt them and to set them back. The story takes so many twists and turns and you end up really feeling for both of them, rooting for them to stay together. It gets really dark towards the middle when you find out about Rei's brother and about Kira's father and how they both overcome so much and all this love that Kira has for Rei and how much she changed him, but in a positive way.
This story is the kind of story I wish I could write. The kind of story that really reaches you and makes you feel for the characters as if they were real people. Most of all, it was realistic type problems not some bullshit like Rei is a space man fighting space monsters because the king of the alien people stole his woman. It's all very real and I loved it. Anyone who loves manga, or is just looking for a good story to read, should give this series a try. <3
I'm still feeling all lovey dovey, I wanna look for more movies/books to keep up the feeling. <3 <3 <3
*mwah* @ 07:22 p.m. on Thursday, April 17, 2008
The good things
Kissing sound - Buck-Tick * Nakayubi
Tomorrow, we're going to buy groceries. More food in the house! Always a good thing.
Yesterday, I stepped out for a minute to go with D to see my unnie and Hayden. I was excited to see her again and I took a ton more pictures. They're all over here. She's such a pretty little girl. And I don't gush about children so yeah, you must know how pretty she is. Some of unnie's other friends where there too but I was just glad to see D and unnie again. If I could get Jun there with us one day, it would be a reunion from way back in the day XD
This Friday I'm getting my hair done. FINALLY. I haven't gotten my roots done since JANUARY so the top of my head just looks terrible. I haven't been able to do much on up keeping it since it doesn't cost a bit to get it done and I don't have money. Thank god for this job, I'll finally be able to afford getting my hair done every month or so. I thought about getting the blonde out, changing it back to normal or even something different but then I realized how much I like it and how long I've had it...I really do love my blonde <3 though it's a hassle to maintain.
I've been going through some trouble in getting these jeans for Ryuhei. I bought a beautiful (albeit expensive) pair of Sadol jeans second hand from this girl on DoA. She's from Cali and had excellent feedback so I didn't hesitate in buying them. The transaction took place on the 5th, which was a Saturday and on Monday, she shipped them out and gave me the tracking number through Paypal. Well when the 14th rolled around, I got concerned because I sensed a rip off. It doesn't take more then 3 to 4 days from California to arrive in Jersey. So I checked the tracking number and realized it wasn't the girl, it was the P.O. They're holding my jeans hostage apparently. When I checked their location they were in a town in Jersey I had NEVER heard of. When I checked later that night, they were in Pennsylvania!! I was like WTF!!! So I checked again today and they're back in Jersey about an hour or so away from me. With any luck, I'll have them tomorrow. JEEZ. I had never gone through so much trouble with the P.O for such a small package, especially that was sent within the state!
Job is already asking for availability for May. I can't lie, I know for all of except 2 days in that entire month, I have nothing planned. I can pretty much work whenever they need me. Except for those 2 days. Ugh, training day is approaching. I have two more weeks of doing nothing before it's back to slave work. I'm still happy I got the job, but I know that within a week or two, I'll be blogging about how much I hate the job and just like the money. Sure, money makes you happy. That first paycheck full of reimbursements will sure make me feel better. But we'll see if it's worth it in the end. X__x
Oh and before I forget, thank you Aya for telling me what There Will Be Blood was about. I thought it was about greed but at the same time, I thought it wasn't and I had somehow missed the point. I did, but not as much as I thought I did XD
Still writing. Speaking of which, my official page is almost complete thanks to Shabby. I can't wait until all the little kinks come out and everything is ready to go. Weee!
I keep forgetting to mention how I recently read this book called Yakuza moon: Memoirs of a gangster's daughter.
(Image taken from Amazon.com.) I had been wanting this book as I mentioned before when I went to NYC. I got the recommendation from Amazon since I listed a ton of yakuza books there, mostly for research/self entertaining purposes. When this one popped up, I was dying to read it because the description sounded awesome. Taken directly from Amazon:
"Tendo, the daughter of a yakuza (mob) boss, grew up in 1970s and '80s Japan, living through the booms and busts of life on the wrong side of the law. Her first published work, Shoko uses unpracticed but appropriately blunt prose to memoir her exceedingly arduous life; readers will appreciate her restrained but powerful details, especially during some of the harsher scenes. From age 12 onwards, Shoko's life was enveloped in drug addiction, poverty, psychological and sexual abuse, miscarriage, attempted suicide and the deaths of many close family members, set against a backdrop of Japan's ultra-secretive yakuza society. Admiration and a detached style keep Tendo from exploring any resentment she might harbor toward her criminal father, which may prove off-putting for some, but feels entirely honest given the emotional trauma Tendo suffers, and is as revealing for what it includes as for what it doesn't. Emotionally complex and thoroughly heart-rending, this book is recommended for anyone searching for a more thorough and personal understanding of Japanese society, and its darker corners, than is offered by more popular Japanese imports (movies, comic books) featuring similar subject matter."
Sounds awesome right? Well I should have done my homework a little better. When I got the book I was surprised at how thin it was it's only 192 pages. But I wasn't put off by it. Seriously, the book was Average. The story was good don't get me wrong but I think it was slightly mislabeled. The title and the description make it seem as if all of the author's misdoing and life revolve around her yakuza father and his lifestyle when in reality, by the time the book reaches the first couple of pages, the father has already retired from being a yakuza. The author hangs around yakuza and has ex boyfriends and ex-husband who were yakuza but that was pretty much it. I felt it was slightly misleading since she didn't really have a lot of problems with her father, but in fact expresses a lot of love for him. It deals mostly with her life and how she made the wrong choices but most if not all of it, had nothing to do with what her father did. It was just something she was exposed to and it was the kind of men she attracted because she hung around with yanki's and bosozuku. I think she could have gone into more detail about what she did or happened to her and things of that nature but it was all very quick and glossed over. I wish it had been better or maybe my excitement about it set standards way too high. Oh well. Either way, it was average. I was disappointed with it a lot. =p Boo.
And with that, I'm done! I shall attempt to write some more.
*mwah* @ 07:37 p.m. on Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I Drink your milkshake
Kissing sound - UVERworld * D-technoLife
So, I saw There Will Be Blood today. After grabbing a bite to eat and buying some candy, I went over to Hammy's house and we played some Rock Band and then waited for Tai to join us so we could watch the movie.
I liked it, but I'm not really sure what the hell it was about. If you asked me what's this movie about? I'd be like, it's about Daniel Day Lewis being awesome and crazy as well as him drinking your milkshake. I wondered why that was the catch line of the movie because it totally didn't seem to fit at all, but you have to see the movie, then it will make sense. DRAIN IT!!! LOL There were some seriously, hilarious moments in the movie too, all of them involving Daniel Day Lewis, who seriously is, too fucking cool. I'm a little scared of him, not gonna lie, but he's awesome. I was a little confused about what happened or better yet, what the plot was about, other then Daniel Day Lewis being an oilman and loving what he does. Maybe I'm reading too much into it and that was the point of the movie, him loving his job, but I'm sure I'm missing something greater. I did like it though. But now I'm going to be saying "I drink your milkshake" for a while.
I went to take my drug test for my job yesterday. I was worried I'd have to give blood. (intense fear of needles + me = not good reactions) When we got there, there were a couple of other people with the same paperwork I had for work and drug tests. One girl went ahead of me and all I heard was "Just sit there for a moment and someone will come and take your blood soon." My head picked up and my eyes got wide and I turned into a rabbit, twitching nervously in my chair as Tai said to calm down. I didn't want them to take my blood and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I felt color and heat leave my body the longer I sat there and eventually, they called me. I followed a nurse to a private room in the back and as I tentatively stepped in, I asked "You're not gonna take my blood are you?" she kinda laughed and said it was just a urine test which I felt much better about. I'd pee in a cup a million times over so long as they didn't take my blood. Anyway, the pee in the cup test was gross and I'll spare details but when I was done, I asked if I could wash my hands and she wouldn't let me right away!! I was like DUDE COME ON. Eventually she let me and thank the lord for antibacterial soap. We left right away and I was just more relieved then anything else. No blood test for me WOOT!
I hate when people ask me why I'm scared of blood tests. It's like man I have an intense fear of needles, it's a phobia why would you ask WHY? You don't ask someone why they're afraid of spiders or lions? Why ask about needles? Sheesh. I actually once had a nurse laugh at me as I sat cowering about to get blood taken out. She was a total cunt though. She was lucky I was too shaken to tell her off but as she laughed I gave her a dirty look and said "It's not funny" Of course she thought it was. What a bitch, I hope she gets herpes.
STILL WRITING. I'm sorta stuck on what I wanna do. It's so hard to get the wheel moving but when it's off, it's always a good thing.
Fucking little bag of candies. I should have NEVER opened it. Now they're done and I have no more. Fucking delicious, delicious candy. It drank my milkshake.
*mwah* @ 10:36 p.m. on Saturday, April 12, 2008
Hayden Joyce
Kissing sound - Miyavi * Are You Ready to Rock?
I went to see unnie's baby girl yesterday. Her name is Hayden Joyce. I wasn't able to go to the hospital until 4.30 or so when Tai got home. The minute he was home though, I was ready. It took us about half an hour to get to the hospital, battle traffic and then actually finding parking. I realized I didn't want to show up empty handed to see my unnie so at the over priced gift shop, I bought her a pink carnation and vase and a "It's a Girl!" balloon. I knew there would be other gifts but I wanted to get her at least something from me. With money I don't have. And got charged a 2$ fee at the ATM because this 1800's fashioned hospital doesn't accept credit cards (WHAT??!!) Anyway, after being overcharged and then Tai and I running around all over the hospital looking for the right side of the floor my unnie was on, we got to her room. She was recovering nicely, feeling sore (she had a C-section) and feeling a bit bored, Tai and I kept her company for a while. We made her laugh a lot which hurt her soreness but it made her laugh which was important. Unnie told us about the whole experience and how she was born on the 7th at 5.30PM. I asked her who else had come to see her, mostly to torture myself and she told me everyone I knew would be there. I felt a little pang in my heart but got over it quickly. Then, unnie took us to see Hayden. She was in the NICU wing, not for anything bad or troubling, but because she had a temperature when she was born and they just wanna keep an eye on her.
Seeing Hayden was a trip. She was SO tiny. I was personally blown away by it because I had never seen an infant. I had always seen babies a month or so after they're born and by then they get a bit bigger but seeing her, only a few days old, was such a trip. She was teeny tiny, kinda like a well made doll. But more over, she was beautiful. Most newborns I had ever seen were always ugly looking, all wrinkly and gray but Hayden was beautiful. She had little cheeks that looked like peaches and dark, dark hair. She made the most adorable faces as she yawned and stretched in her holder. She also had these tiny little hands and tiny little rice sized fingernails. Unnie said if I gave her my finger, she would hold onto it so I gave her my pinkie finger, the only one with a short nail and she held onto it. It was so amazing. At one point, she opened her eyes and all I saw where these ebony jewels gleaming out. There was hardly any whites around her eyes, just dark dark black eyes. I told unnie that she was seriously, the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Plus, she was quiet and hardly cried at all. I was also kind of looking around the NICU area to see a ton of premature babies all much tinier then Hayden, red and very wrinkly. But like I said, Hayden was only there for a fever and she was doing better every day.
We stayed until about 7.30 when unnie's younger sister, her daughter and her man came to visit unnie too. After that, we left to grab some eats and I told unnie I'd find out what D and Jun were doing so on Sunday we'd go visit her and Hayden again and I could get some pictures to share and gush over myself.
I didn't get any mommy feelings myself. I don't have that motherly instinct myself. I never liked kids, the idea of raising them or having them. I'm not a fan of pain and of worrying all the time. I'm also very self centered so I never was keen on the idea of having kids myself. I remember the idea first spawned when I was about 12. I told my mom I never wanted kids. She told me I'd change my mind the older I got. By the time I was 18, that idea was still a firm stone in my head, no kids. My mom said I was young yet. So here I am, 25 and still no desire to have babies. In fact, I think the idea has repelled itself further and further away from me, the more I find out about it and all the pain and the hassle and the aches. Ugh no thanks. I want to keep my husband all to myself and all that money on raising a child, I rather go back to Japan, enjoy myself and never have to worry about anyone. Besides, at my age, I STILL can't take care of myself. I wouldn't want to take care of anyone else. Cashew has taught me that I can't be a good mother anyway. I sometimes forget to feed him because my mom says she would and then she doesn't and I leave him home when I have to because I need to go do something. I haven't taken him to the vet when I was supposed to and if I get annoyed with him constantly trying to get on my lap when I'm working, I pick him up and sit him behind me on my chair so he doesn't get in the way but I'm still there for him. Yeah, thanks, no motherhood for me. Besides, kids are always cuter when they're not yours. Especially when they get annoying and whiny.
All the same, she is the most beautiful little girl I've ever seen. I can't wait till she gets older, she's going to be everything I couldn't be when I was a kid. A princess, a ballerina and a mermaid. *nods* She'll have all the love in the world too. I'm still hoping she won't be afraid of me when she's older because I already adore her. <3
On a totally different subject, Tai beat Crisis Core last night and I watched the ending with him. We both cried. Fucking Square-Enix. They sure know how to pull heart strings.
*mwah* @ 07:18 p.m. on Thursday, April 10, 2008
News and revolations
Kissing sound - Massive Attack * Angel
So my unnie Yoon had her baby yesterday. I didn't know where she was until today though I did know she was already in the hospital. I miss the friendship that unnie and I had when we were younger. In high school, she was my big sister, someone I knew I could turn to and help me out with whatever. We would spend hours on the phone just laughing and talking and she supported me a lot through my early stages of writing by listening to me read to her whatever I had written at the time. I use to go over her apartment because she only live in the next complex over and we would talk there, go through whatever I brought with me and chat about our former fandom and how we would marry them. We'd listen to music and sing along, sometimes dance and stuff, silly things like that. Unnie was also super close to D and Jun, the four of us in high school called ourselves, SFL or A2BC. Our little crew names that we signed notes with, yearbooks or anything that required a signature. Around the time of unnie's senior year, things started to change and I did my best to accept them, though I never liked change. Unnie got with some guy who I DID NOT like and made it clear to unnie that I didn't like him. I thought he was a scumbag and it turned out I was right. Unnie's whole life revolved around him and she stopped telling me things about him because she knew I didn't like him and I wouldn't approve of what she was doing. I became the last to know everything, even when she decided to move in with him and when she temporarily left the state and moved with him. I was the last to know and she wouldn't even tell me anything, I had to find out through Jun. It always bummed me out and I hated the gap that had appeared.
For years, I lost touch with unnie, only every now and then getting a card from her or a letter or maybe a random phone call or an invite through a third party but that was it. The bond that I had with her when we were younger was pretty much gone. Over the past few years, we got in contact again, texting every now and then, more cards through the mail and more importantly, hanging out. It wasn't the same though. I felt as though unnie had replaced Jun, D and myself with another circle of friends, people she talked to and saw on at least an every other day basis. I remember realizing that a few years back when I was invited to Thanksgiving dinner at her place and seeing her other friends. I remember being envious and kinda sad that it was no longer me. But I knew that wasn't anyone's fault, things happen and I was just glad we were still friends.
When unnie told me she was pregnant, I was really happy for her and for once, felt totally unselfish things. I hate to admit this, but there's few times I don't have an alternative motive for doing what I do. But with unnie being pregnant, I really badly wanted to be part of that whole experience. When I saw unnie for the first time after she told me about her pregnancy, she was already 6 months in and for some reason, I felt as if I had missed so much already. I was invited to her baby shower but was not asked to help plan or even show up early to decorate, something that bugs me personally because anytime D or Jun have some kind of event (well more D then anyone else) she always asks me to come over early and help decorate or set up. I love doing that, so much so that during D's last party I actually bragged about how tired I was and how my feet hurt from being on them all day because I got to come over early and help. I'm stupid I know, but I really did brag. During the last few days of unnie's due date, I would text her everyday to see how she was, mostly because I really did want to know how she was. I knew in my head that I would be the last person unnie would turn to if she needed anything. Aside from her husband, she has two sisters and then her two closest friends, I would be on the bottom of that list. But still, I wanted her to know I was there for her, no matter what happened, no matter the time or place, if she called me, I'd be there. She let me know on Sunday that she was already in the hospital and that the next day, they were going to induce labor. I was hoping she would tell me which hospital and what time but I got nothing.
I didn't call the next day. I didn't feel it would be my place anymore to ask and come see her when I knew it would be family and close friends only. So I waited. Today she sent me a picture of her daughter Hayden and I asked if I could visit. She told me Hayden was in NICU and that if I wanted to see her, tomorrow would be better. I said I would come tomorrow, no matter what and I said I loved her. She said she loved me too which really made me happy.
I don't know why it's effecting me so much or why I so badly want to be part of unnie's baby's life. Mostly because I've had people around me have kids, including my cousin and unnie's younger sister and their kids always look at me weird or look at me afraid because they don't know me. I don't want Hayden to do that to me, I want her to know me and to love me and to not be afraid of me. But in order for that to happen, I have to be there and I want to be there. But sometimes, I feel like it's too late and too much time has passed and that unnie doesn't need me around anymore. Others have taken my place. And seriously, that makes me cry. I so badly wish I had made more of an effort to keep in touch with her, to be around for the good and bad times. I wish I hadn't been so stubborn during those years that unnie was dating that scumbag and just kept my opinions to myself. I still think it's too late but I'm going to try.
Please don't be afraid of me Hayden.
*mwah* @ 08:34 p.m. on Tuesday, April 8, 2008
New York in the spring
Kissing sound - Gackt * Uncontrol
I haven't been to New York since January. I always love going to the city, mostly because I just like visiting not living there. I deal with enough jerks and expensive housing in Jersey as is thanks. Of course, I took my camera because there is too much awesome to pass up in the city. XD
Follow the link for pictures
It was such a good time. My legs still hurt though. X.x Someone who was close to atrophying shouldn't be walking so much, so soon lol.
*mwah* @ 08:58 p.m. on Monday, April 7, 2008
JOB
Kissing sound - Dir en grey * Dead Tree
I GOTS A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today, I went in for my follow up interview, which really wasn't an interview so much as the supervisor giving me all the paperwork I have to fill out to be an employee. I was so excited! Then she let me know I would have to go to orientation on the 28th, which isn't too bad and not as scary anymore (I'll get to why in a minute) So after filling out my paperwork and being told what I needed to bring and what forms to fill out for direct deposit for my PAYCHECK XD, she shook my hand and I was hired. I left with a packet of important papers and stuff I need for orientation and stuff. I told Tai right away and of course he was happy for me. I texted the immediate people that must know about me being gainfully employed, being Nickles, Auwonie, D, Jun and Ham. I was more excited about the prospects of getting money then anything else. It'll be nice not to be broke anymore. I already know what I'm doing with my first paycheck too. I have to buy Jun and Tai UBER LATE Christmas gifts and then take my monkey to the vet. Yes, I'm a bad parent, I haven't been able to take Cashew to the vet since last year. The whole situation has been so tight and confusing that I haven't been able to take him and I feel bad. But now I'll be taking him. With any left over money, I'll get something for Ryuhei/Satsuki. I divide each check into 3 parts. One part for savings, the second for bills and the third is spending money. Spending money is always the least amount, majority either goes to bills or savings so let's hope that I can control myself now that I'll have money again. EXCITEMENT!!
So orientation not being as scary as I originally thought. Here's why. Once I told my mom that my first out of three days of orientation, is only 4 hours, she offered to come with me. I felt really relieved because Tai couldn't come with me because he has work and I was worried about how I would be getting there and who would pick me up from the train station but luckily, my mom is going to take me. I feel much better about it now and not scared. The second day which is 8 hours, Tai doesn't have work so he'll be taking me all the way to Long Island and then he'll go home and come pick me up later that day. So that way I don't have to be by myself. The third day however, I may actually have to be by myself, which won't be so bad at that point because I'll already be use to the place. I get reimbursed for every penny I spend and I get a lunch and breakfast while I'm there. The only thing that'll worry me is how I'll stay awake all three days. I have to go pretty early in the morning. My first day, orientation starts at 8.30 and from where I live in Jersey, it's an hour into Penn Station in NYC and then a 10 minute train ride to Long Island so I have to at least leave my house by 6 which is gonna suck BIG TIME. The next two days, orientation will be at 9 but all the same, still early days. Ugh, I'm gonna be so dead those days. My only up side to this is that hey, it's only three days.
I checked in with my unnie today. Still no baby. lol
After I went in to get employed XD, Tai and I headed to Costco where he bought himself a bike. He had always wanted one so now he got one. When we brought it out to the car however, we saw it would not fit in the car AT ALL. So after trying for like 20 minutes, Tai gave up and decided to ride the bike to his parent's house which wasn't too far away. I drove the car to his parents house and then he left it there to be picked up later. After that, we got some crepes and then went home for a nap. XD Another thing that made this day good was that Tai bought me my very own copy of The Little Mermaid, Platinum Edition DVD. I WAS SO HAPPY! I was 7 years old when that movie came out and it changed my life. I wanted to be a mermaid so bad when I was a kid and I LOVED this movie. I would play it over and over and over again until I learned all the words in the songs and then everyone's lines. I was Ariel for Halloween at least for two different years and I had A TON of merchandise, including but not limited to underwear, bedspreads, posters, place mats, cups, lunchboxes and dolls. The list goes on but that's just some of the stuff I had. My best claim to fame was that when the movie came out, Macy's had a big promo going on that they had a life sized plush Max stuffed animal. You remember Max don't ya? Prince Eric's sheep dog? Yeah XD I had one of those. With his tags that said Max on it and I loved that dog. I remember popping in the tape after taking a shower at night, throwing on my Ariel nightgown and socks, grabbing Max and watching the movie before it was bed time. Ahh memories. Anyway, my hopes and dreams were dashed of becoming a mermaid when my mom wouldn't let me dye my hair red. Because in my mind, that's all that was stopping me. So obviously, this movie means a great deal to me. You know what's vexing though? The Broadway show they have now, the girl they have staring as Ariel, looks like her, but what kills me is that she's my age AND born a day before me. *SIGH* I hope that at least she had the same dreams of becoming a mermaid.
I'm really full and still sleepy. Damnit, DoA is down and I had a message there. Ugh, wouldn't that just figure. I'm still waiting for Sadol to get their shit in order so I can buy things. Aww, I wish I had money, finally someone I know is running an order to some sites I like buying clothes from. How annoying. Well soon...soon.
EEE I forgot to mention how it's APRIL and now I can start forming a countdown as to when I can order Satsuki. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! Annnd I'm done.
*mwah* @ 07:45 p.m. on Friday, April 4, 2008
Untitled X2
Kissing sound - Asagi *Corvinus
So if you know well enough, you know that I get excited over very dumb/petty things. I'm excitable what can I say. Since I've been a long time fan of the Final Fantasy franchise, more specifically, over VII, I've ALWAYS wanted the FFVII victory song, you know after they fight and you win, that little song that plays? I always wanted that as a ringtone. More then anything especially when I saw Advent Children and then LOZ had it! I died so much in that scene btw. Anyway I always wanted it but I could never get it because my phones were always complicated. They were difficult and fussy and could never upload shit etc etc. Last night though, Tai gave me a link to a ringtone site, pretty much a make it yourself ringtone. Which is cool because Tai's gotten his from there. Right now he's got the Katamari song as his ring tone, you know, "Na naaaa-na-na na na na, na na na na-na na" and so forth and so on. It's really cute. Anyway after much bitching and searching the interweb, I finally found the FFVII victory song. NOT the midi which I kept finding. Then, I uploaded it on the site and waited. I thought it wouldn't be sent to my phone because I did it pretty early in the evening and by the time I was done on the interweb, it still hadn't been sent to my phone. So today, I check and sure enough, it had been sent. I put it on my phone and now, my ringtone is the most awesome song ever!!! XD XD I have the FFVII victory song!! WOOOOO! It made me really happy. I thought about getting One Winged Angel, you know, Sephiroth's theme, but I liked the victory song way better. Maybe for my text messages, I should just have them all go "SEPHIORTH!!" lol how awesome would that be? If I could only find the song now...
See, I told you I get excited over trivial things.
The other day my mom and Tai went to get some Portuguese food from this place my aunt knew of. It was SO GOOD. I can't remember the last time I ate so much X.x Usually, I'm a super light eater, or at the very least, a fussy one, but I just ate this shit up. More over, I had the remains for lunch today. Man I feel fat and gross but it was so good. Usually Tai doesn't like Portuguese food, he hates the rice while that's pretty much the only kind of rice I'll eat unless it's Asian kind of rice. He and I also don't like seafood but that's what a lot of Portuguese food is and I love their steaks but Tai doesn't because he's even fussier then I am when it comes to food. However, all this, it was destroyed, we have nothing left. lol
Unnie's baby is due in like 3 or so more days. I want to keep checking in on her until the very last moment, in case she would need something. I spoke to her today in fact and she's really scared but excited too. I totally don't blame her lol.
Glad to see that a lot of people agree with me on overly done bad horror movies. I kept thinking about other movies that are like that, but I really couldn't think of any off the top of my head. I did however, kept thinking of the good ones. I know a lot of horror movie buffs out there didn't like the Saw series but I did, despite not having seen the last one. I think that was one of the few cases, where in the gore and violence actually moved the movie along. And in some cases, the gore wasn't even as bad as some people thought it was. Oldboy was another case where the violence moved the story along. It was a revenge movie, you had to have the violence to move it along. And again, I'm blanking on a good horror movie was.
I have yet to see a movie based on a real serial killer that is actually good or in any case, realistic. Like seriously? Why did these directors/writers feel the need to "change" a few things in a serial killer movie? As if real life wasn't bad enough. My best case would be the Dahmer movie and the Gacy movie. Both B-movies in every sense, no name actors in it and the director/writer just felt the need to change a few things to make it interesting. Like SERIOUSLY??? Didn't these people read the case files, talk to these guys, talk to the cops in charge, READ A BOOK to know that there was ZERO need to change anything? Their lives were fucked up enough as is! Ugh, I watched about a half hour of each movie and that was enough to know how badly it was butchered. It was just terrible and BAD. I'm on a horror movie jag now. I'll stop.
I'm excited about my ringtone. XD
Nothing new in the mail today. I'm thinking about buying another pair of jeans, but it's so hard to find a pair I'm madly in love with that aren't bloody expensive. I want to order from Sadol...and now I can because they're international...oh.shit. XD XD XD YES! No more wondering what to do and considering group orders! WOOT!
I'm going hunting.
*mwah* @ 06:52 p.m. on Thursday, April 3, 2008
First Day of April
Kissing sound - Sneaker Pimps * Lighting Field
I hate April Fool's Day. I think it's a good thing that almost everyone I know isn't lame enough to try and pull some crappy, shitty trick that would more likely piss me off then make me laugh. And what's up with everyone's sick sense of humor? Like saying mean things, doing mean things and acting mean and then adding "April Fool's!" at the end of it would make it better? Seriously, what's up with that? I heard that this scanning site I usually get my Air Gear fix from is shutting down and it's like wow really? Why would that be funny? That would upset a lot of people, not to mention the really faithful people who go to that site and help pay their domain name and shit like that. I just think it's mean. And lame, don't forget lame.
So last night, as I was flipping through channels I saw that The Hills Have Eyes 2 was playing and since I saw the first one and liked it enough, I decided to catch this one. Ugh. It creeped me out. It was just gross without any reason. And not to mention violent for no reason. At least in the first one, the violence moved the story along, this one just sorta did it for shock and gore value. This one also had the most pointless rape scene ever. Not to mention, violent gross rape scene ever. Like seriously, there was no need for it. Oh, don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm all against violence against women or anything, this is seriously a movie matter. About 2 scenes before that, they showed the gross hillbilly mutant with the girl he had taken from some other hillbilly mutant and he threw her on the table and was drooling all over her face (EW FUCKING GROSS. His saliva looks like egg yellows that had been mixed with milk) as he gurgled at her GIVE ME BABY! And when the girls friends hear her screaming for help, there's a shot of the friends walking towards the area she's at. Then the next scene is the mutant hillbilly punching her in the face to knock her out, then he goes to the door, stares out into the darkness while in the background you here the girl crying and shit, then the camera backs away and he slams the door. TOTALLY indicating to what's about to happen. There was ZERO need for the scene that followed which showed her friends trying to locate her and then they cut to the girl's face, screwed up in massive amounts of pain as the mutant hillbilly fucks her violently in the ass. SERIOUSLY WHY?? WHY WAS THAT THERE??? Like that's all that showed! Her face in pain and her being jarred around. Like seriously, no point in it AT ALL. Then the next scene was the continuation of the movie. It was so stupid. Like the makers of the movie was like well let's throw a rape scene in there, you know, just for fun. *face palm* Totally retarded. I didn't really like the movie as much as the first one though I was creeped out by the gross mutant hillbillies and their grotesque faces and bodies but I think that was the whole idea. No real memorable death scenes either, just a whole bunch of man that had to hurt moments. One guy who was trying to escape and climb down the hill was grabbed up and had his arm lopped off, causing him to fall to his death. They showed him falling and his head splatting across the rocks but that was about it. Nothing was really good, not like in the first one. Over all, stupid movie, I'm so angry I wasn't my time watching it, but all the same, glad I didn't pay for it.
I got Ryuhei/Satsuki's jeans today. I was so excited about them but when I initially put them on Ryuhei, I didn't really liked the way they looked. First off, they're not low rise which means they come up to like under his belly button, secondly, they're not skinny pants which I realized look good on him because of his height and thirdly, the belt loops were so thick/big that I could hardly get his chains on them. I showed Tai and I noticed the bottom of the pant leg didn't look as bad as I thought and if I tug down the jeans down to his hips, he won't get baggy butt like I originally though, so they don't look too bad anymore. I sorta had a change of heart about them. I think it's mostly because I love the color of the jeans so much.
There's a few pictures on the LJ and a bunch more over on my DA account if you're curious to see the rest. =D
Man it's so nice out tonight. I actually had to open a window to get some of that fresh air in. The apartment was stifling. The windows are still open and there's that cooling spring rain breeze flapping at my curtains. I'm a little cold but not freezing. YAY FOR SPRING!
*mwah* @ 11:06 p.m. on Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Whos Bored
Kissing sound - Luna Sea * Be Gone
Me! I'm bored that's who!! HUZZAH!
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No, really it's pretty lame and in between ideas on what to do, I'm sitting at my desk with my head down. Uh, duh you know as oppose to getting off the stupid internet. Well I am chatting with a friend from high school. Sha-bam.
I have done NOTHING all weekend. Hopefully, those days will come to an end soon. I can't believe I'm saying that. >.>
I filled out a friending meme over on a Merry LJ comm and no one wanted to be my friend. ;__;
Then I filled one out one on a writer LJ comm and 3 people wanted to be my friend n___n
I like having new LJ friends since I seriously lack IRL ones lol.
I ran out of chocolate covered almonds today ;___; it made me sad.
But I got word that I'm going to New York next Sunday and that made me happy! n___n
I'm going despite the CaC concert being canceled. NYC day trips are so fun and it's the best time to geek it up big time. Kinokunya, China Town, the underground market, Forbidden Planet and then all the little things in NYC that just make it AWESOME. I love the city, I just love not living there more XD
Hey would it be weird to ask someone you've never met face to face and only know through LJ to meet up somewhere if you knew where they were going to be? Not in that creepy/stalker "I know your every move" type thing, but like say they were like "hey I'm gonna be in your general area around these days" would it be weird to ask to meet up? I think it would be but Tai tells me that as long as you phrase it correctly, it wouldn't. It's a problem I'm facing now. lol GOD, I'm so socially awkward!!!!! I wish I could ask without coming off like a weirdo but I think no matter how it's phrased it'll come off as weird. I'm best not making that impression.
MY HANDS ARE COLD.
Still waiting for Ryuhei/Satsuki's things. I can't wait to get everything. I'm so excited.
I think I sold the wig I have!
Kay, mental randomness is done for the night. I need something to do. Hope I find it.
*mwah* @ 11:21 p.m. on Sunday, March 30, 2008
Slow process
Kissing sound - FAKE? * Breathing Water
So here's the deal. The job I'm sweating over, Tai's mom hooked me up with it. She's got some pull over in her job and she put in several good words for me. She tells me today that basically, I'm hired. But I'm still worried because I haven't even had the interview with the main manager yet. My Friday interview was canceled because she had to run to New York for a class or something I unno. Anyway, she tells me I made a good impression on my last interview and there was just a little confusion about me being able to get around since I have no car. From what Tai's mom is telling me, all I have to do is go through the formalities of the interview and then I'm in. I'm feeling relieved but anxious all at once. I found out that I'm going to do 3 days of orientation in New York, but not even Manhattan, in Long Island, somewhere I've never been before. Plus each day, is 8 hours. The only good thing about this is that I'll be reimbursed for every penny I spend. I'm worried about that because I've never been there, I don't know when the days of orientation will be, I have no idea what I'm going to do other then sit on a train and force myself not to cry. I'm a big baby, I've been pampered all my life in the notion that I never go anywhere by myself. If my mom hasn't been with me for like 80% of the time, D or Jun has and more recently, it's been Tai holding my hand for everything. It's a bad habit I've developed and now that I'm facing the idea of having to go somewhere so far by myself, I'm scared. I refuse to back down though because the job is too sweet to pass up just because of 3 stupid days. All the same, the anxiety sits in the center of my throat.
I haven't even been officially hired yet. *face palm*
Anyway, nothing really has been going on since the dinner party. I've just been buying up shit for Ryuhei/Satsuki left and right. With no money mind you. I recently bought them 2 different necklaces, both were cheap but mind you, no money. And that was after buying a pair of glasses, a pair of jeans, a pair of boots and a hoodie. I R A GEENUZ!!! *face palm again* Yeah I say that now, but seriously, I have no great qualms about buying it. I so love buying things for Ryuhei and now my coming Satsuki. I wasn't going to blog about my doll things anymore since I figured people were getting tired of reading about it, but I've gained some new doll friends on LJ so now I feel better about doing so. Ha ha XD Anyway, I can't wait to get everything. I realized the other day that I don't really like the old wigs I have for Ryuhei and the only one I do love is the one he's wearing now, but that's not even for him, it's for Satsuki. I wanted a new one, shoulder length-ish and I found one. NO, I didn't buy it but the minute it goes up for grabs, guess who's already got first dibs on it. Yeah that's right, the sucker with no money over here. Sha-bam.
I'm still writing. My new piece is working along so nicely and I haven't felt the nudge I felt the last time I was writing. The only thing is, that I have no title for this yet. I need to think about that some more. I'm trying to get beyond a certain number of chapters before I put something up. The feedback I've gotten on it recently has really helped. XD
Crisis Core is so awesome. Tai got up to the part where Genesis is introduced. GOD I LOVE THIS GAME!!! I can't get over how beautiful it is. It's INSANE. I read the booklet when Tai bought the game and I found out about the "Loveless" pendant. "Loveless" is a poem book that Genesis reads and quotes from, especially in the beginning of the awesome fight scene between him, Angeal, Sephiroth and Zac. EEE!!!
Man how beautiful is that?? I love it so much but at the same time, I don't love it, love it. It's just STUNNING.
This however, is what I love, love. I want this ring so BAD. It's Sephiroth's one wing wrapping around Black Materia. DEATH!!!! *drools* Consider this one of the first things I invest in once I get a job. It's too awesome to pass up.
There's more stuff to drool/pine over at the Square-Enix Official Merchandise Shop. But that ring...gah that ring...DAMN YOU FINAL FANTASY FOR BEING SO AWESOME.
Mmm. I'm gonna go write now. I think I smoked too much today. Gah, I'm still tasting menthol with every burp. X.x
*mwah* @ 07:58 p.m. on Saturday, March 29, 2008
Dinner party
Kissing sound - 12012 * Cyclone
So last night, Tai and I had a dinner party. It started with my unnie texting me out nowhere over the weekend and we made plans for Weds night for her to come over for dinner (as I am broke and she is heavily pregnant) but then I thought it'd be nice if she saw all our friends so I invited Jun and D over as well as Akio because I hadn't seen her in a million years and Ham just because he's my buddy. Jun came with Sweet so before we knew it, it was a dinner party. Ham brought over Rock Band and while we waited for dinner and for everyone to show up, we played. Dinner was awesome and everyone ate |
